Yesterday i celebrated my daughters 13th birthday and couldn't help but be proud of her for being grateful. She didn't get as much as what shes had the past few years as financially i have been a bit unstable at the moment. I mean at Christmas time i was constantly breaking down at the struggle of trying to keep up financially. Money is soooo corrupting. Let this be a warning to all parents. If you buy yr kids expensive things and throw lavish parties, just remember you only have to get better every year. At least that's what they expect.
So last year when my oldest boy turned 13 i took him away just him and i to Melbourne for a shopping spree because i thought that 13 is such a huge turning point and like all teens they love buying things. So not realising at the time that i would have to do it the following year with my daughter. HELLO!!!. So it gets to Christmas when I'm running on empty and all i want to do is crawl into a whole and she springs on me the big question. When are we going to Melbourne?. Did you wan to do it before school starts or closer to my birthday?.
Yeah i knew the question was coming up soon and i knew she was going to want the same thing, because her and her brother were always competing. But the timing ccouldn't have been worse. So i had to take my daughter aside and shamefully explain how difficult the money situation has been since her father and i separated and considering it was only a month afterwards i was still trying to find my feet.
How did she take it?. I thought she took it like a champ! she wasn't smiling and she wasn't telling me it was ok and it didn't matter. But i was just grateful she dint act like a spiteful child and stomp her foot, scream,cry and tell me i didn't love her as much as her brother. She simply put her head down and nodded that she understood and asked politely "Do you think that when we do get a bit more money and get settle that we would be able to do it then, or just go away?". At that time I'm sure my heart must have sunk into my stomach at the thought that she was willing to wait.
So right here and now i would like to thank my daughter for being there for me on her birthday. We had a great BBQ with family and she loved her double decker chocolate cake filled with pink whipped cream and chocolate icing that I'm proud to say i made, and even though she didn't get very many presents this year, she knows il do my best to make up for it. Especially because i was that ugly child and i was scared i was going to have to look my self in the mirror because of the quote my mother always screamed at me "I hope your daughter is just like you so that you will know exactly how i feel!!!!"
I cant wait until we do have that time together and will fill you in with photos and goss.
So last year when my oldest boy turned 13 i took him away just him and i to Melbourne for a shopping spree because i thought that 13 is such a huge turning point and like all teens they love buying things. So not realising at the time that i would have to do it the following year with my daughter. HELLO!!!. So it gets to Christmas when I'm running on empty and all i want to do is crawl into a whole and she springs on me the big question. When are we going to Melbourne?. Did you wan to do it before school starts or closer to my birthday?.
Yeah i knew the question was coming up soon and i knew she was going to want the same thing, because her and her brother were always competing. But the timing ccouldn't have been worse. So i had to take my daughter aside and shamefully explain how difficult the money situation has been since her father and i separated and considering it was only a month afterwards i was still trying to find my feet.
How did she take it?. I thought she took it like a champ! she wasn't smiling and she wasn't telling me it was ok and it didn't matter. But i was just grateful she dint act like a spiteful child and stomp her foot, scream,cry and tell me i didn't love her as much as her brother. She simply put her head down and nodded that she understood and asked politely "Do you think that when we do get a bit more money and get settle that we would be able to do it then, or just go away?". At that time I'm sure my heart must have sunk into my stomach at the thought that she was willing to wait.
So right here and now i would like to thank my daughter for being there for me on her birthday. We had a great BBQ with family and she loved her double decker chocolate cake filled with pink whipped cream and chocolate icing that I'm proud to say i made, and even though she didn't get very many presents this year, she knows il do my best to make up for it. Especially because i was that ugly child and i was scared i was going to have to look my self in the mirror because of the quote my mother always screamed at me "I hope your daughter is just like you so that you will know exactly how i feel!!!!"
I cant wait until we do have that time together and will fill you in with photos and goss.
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